I am a person that constantly thinks of everything that could go wrong and therefore tries to embrace the present and not take it for granted. Since tomorrow is never promised, I try not to get upset or annoyed with things. But I am human. I fail at that quite a lot. Especially since I have 2 toddlers.

Tonight was especially difficult. My daughters were at the kitchen table drawing. I was opening up the packages that had started piling up at the front door. I don’t know why they get into this mood, but they almost cannot finish a thought. They have conversations with me that sound something like this: “Mommy, look at this. Mommy, I drew on the Cars. Mommy, the pen isn’t working. Mommy, I’m sitting here. Mommy, A is for apple.” I know they just want my attention. But there isn’t even a breath between their sentences. I acknowledge them as I work. I respond appropriately. I am looking at them, even though I am across the room opening boxes.

PLEASE STOP SAYING MOMMY!!!!!

Why do they have to say Mommy before every sentence? I am the only one here! I am still listening! Just keep talking! I’m right here! I know, you want attention. I am trying to give it to you! Even if I drop everything and sit with you, YOU STILL SAY MOMMY!

Even as I stand there, continuing my chore, getting seriously annoyed that they just keep repeating Mommy, I realize that if anything were to happen to either of them, I know I would kill to have this moment back with them begging for my attention and saying Mommy on repeat over and over and over again. So then I feel guilty that I am annoyed that they keep repeating Mommy.

I love my girls more than anything and I am so grateful they want my attention. I know in a few years I will wish they want my attention like they do now. I’ll miss this. I’m aware of this logically.

But that last nerve of mine hasn’t received the memo yet…..